My Baby Brothers

From left; Jico, Joshua, John Calvin

Few days ago, my mom Whatsapp me this picture. My baby brothers, few years ago, I can't remember the exact year this picture was taken. Sooooo cute and adorable. Haha. Gosh, I miss them, I miss my family.
This week was a very dynamic week for me. So many unexpected things happened in the same time-work, students, personal, friends. But I am grateful for the sermon last week, "The Battle is the Lord". Ps. Rommel said, when you are in battle remember how great is your God. His great Name, Power and Love. Though most of the 'stuff' haven't settle yet, I put my faith into my awesome God knowing that He'll make a way.

Christmas Eve dinner last year

Back to the topic, my baby brothers, haha. They are growing so well, became taller than me, I miss them, I love them. End of topic XD

Till' then.

XOXO,
~jmarlyn~

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Reminiscing

Screenshot using my vivo Y15

The picture above was taken and posted in my Wechat at 20 Sept 2013. The good old days. I got this habit scrolling on all things that I've posted through my social network. And somehow tonight, while scrolling I stop at this one. This picture really captivated me. I love the view, captured using my old Samsung smartphone. And while looking at it some part of my heart froze. I still remembered very clearly the weather during that time, my feeling at that moment and the surrounding of course. I said there 'The end of degree's life'. It is indeed the end then. Super excited during that time. Excited on moving to the next phase of my life after accomplishing one of the goal that I've set :)

Reminiscing all this stuff remind me that I've been through a lot since that day. The ups and down of life, that is why some people said that life is like a roller-coaster. It is, was and always be. There is a time when I feel so upset cause my plan did not turned out as I wish it to be. There is always this menace that blocked my way. Sometime, I just want to give up and let things happen as it was meant to be but this small voices in my heart keep saying that 'You can do it, don't give up', 'You'll accomplish it'. I am grateful indeed that I have this kind of mindset, "Everything happened for a reason". And that's how I can get through it and keep smiling as always :)

Dear Lord, thank you for the strength.

Loves,

~JMarlyn~

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What if..

What if?

I'm dealing with so many 'what if'' question nowadays. 

• What if the perspective in my life has changed? 
• What if I am directing the focus of my life to another pathway? 
• What if my priority changed?
• What if I can't even contribute any more responsibilities toward it?
• What if this relationship preventing me growing as an individual?
• What if I want to move on?
• What if I can't lie to myself anymore?
• What if I want to live a peaceful life?
• What if I bought this thing?
• What if I stay like this?
• What if I want to stand by myself?
• What if I can't accomplish my goal?
• What if, What if and What if..

Trying to find the most accurate answers. Trying to figure out the best solution for each of this what if questions but in the end of the day I realized I can't. People will continue growing and so do I. Gosh, I need my motivation's book. 

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Moving On~

Greetings everyone!

Another year has passed. Simply grateful for all the blessings from above. Decided to spend some of my time on blogging this afternoon. It's a been a while. Since this is my first post of 2015, entitled my post as Moving On~, oh yeah. Haha. How's life people? Mine? So far so good and blessed all the time. Spend most of my time facing my beloved students nowadays. Full class schedule from Monday to Thursday. Tiring but it is matter of enjoying what you love to do. 

Lecturer. Never thought that I will become one during this age. To be honest since I was a little girl, I never really know what I want to be, my dad asked me to be an engineer since I was once a science student. So as usual, I just follow everything he said cause I am daddy's girl. Haha. But things don't turned out as we planned. Well, that's life people. I am sure everyone of us have encountered it before. I suddenly became an IT student after the Matriculation Program. Pursuing my study because again dad asked me to just do it. I don't want to continue it actually, why? I am frustrated cause I am going back to Labuan again and I am leaving the science stream. But then I realized, there is no point pursuing without a purpose. So I planned to be a teacher after I graduated, I am aiming for the KPLI (Kursus Perguruan Lepasan Ijazah). But then, the environment during Uni's day changed my goal again. Miss Chin is our programming lecturer, she's is so good, pretty and smart! I love the way she dressed, do her hairs and makeup, her shoes and so on. Then I have this crazy thought, I want to be a lecturer like her, so that I can wear those pretty things everyday. Hahaha. Lame, such a kiddos thought right. So, that is my plan back then. KPLI, pursue study then lecturer. It is either two, teacher or lecturer. Soon after that, in 2013, I graduated. And that is the moment I am searching my pathway of life, that is also when I heard rumors, no more KPLI, I want to pursue my study but I am struggling with my pointer. Losing track of my life huh~

But I put all my hope and faith to Him. Then, He opened the door. Mid 2014, my friend contacted me about a vacancy in Micronet International College, IT college here in Brunei. Send my resume, got phone interview, went to Brunei for another interview and demo teaching, being accepted, undergo training and now Praise the Lord I can wear all those pretty things everyday. It's been 4 months already, learned a lot and still have a long way to go. Still working hard to improve myself even more. But I enjoyed it, living my life to the fullest. I promised myself to give all my best since I've received the greatest gift and blessing from above. 

Never give up and never ever lose hope!

Lots of love,

~JMarlyn~

Some of my students :)

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Another Phase of Life

Helooooo bloggers! I'm back. Weehewww!! Welcome back juj (kasi welcome diri sendiri dulu :p)

My last post was back on January, wewww time flies isn't it? I wonder how's everyone in this blog. Hoping all is well. For the past 8 months (Is it 8months? Not sure.), I remembered reading the blog updates of few blogger that I can memorize their blog URL. Yeaa, at least I'm still in contact with blogger tho I didn't post anything kan.

So, another phase of life. Finally after 7 months tanam anggur di rumah a.k.a jobless (Not really jobless, still helping dad with his work tho), I got my first job. Horrayyyy!! (Clap, clap, clap). Another blessing from Him. Grateful, grateful and grateful. 252km away from the land below the wind (according to Google map, hehe), here I am entering the brand new phases of my life. I've never reveal in social media/network/whatsoever what my job are but I think I'm revealing it here, right now. Amboiii. Haha. So, I am teaching in one of the private college here, a.k.a lecturer (actually, I'm still malu with this title).

The thing is, I have to absorb so many stuff in a very short time. Tension and pressure was build within me and I need to do something to express it all. I don't think I can express by talking it to others. I prefer writing and here I am. (Winky, wink!)

Next week, the first class of this new semester will begin. 3 weeks before, I've been assigned to teach 2 subject only. Suddenly this week they updated the timetable and add one more subject. So, in total 3 subject for me. I'm excited to teach, I'm grateful, I'm eager to teach but when it comes to preparation I'm speechless. Yes, I am working hard for it, still working hard until this point but sometimes I became clueless of what I am doing. Do you get what I mean? Have you experienced this before? Okay, I already listed down my to-do list. But in the middle of accomplishing it, I got blur. I have to do my course structure, lesson plan, slides, assignment's question and marking scheme, student's project guideline all by myself. Andddddd we have to follow few process before all of that things being approved. If not approved, we have to do it over and over again. My mind is all over the places. This week we're handling the student orientation and few of the lecturers involves in short training with Ms. Mariam including me. I'm running out of time. What should I do? I'm trying each day to motivate myself but sometimes I failed and it will become unproductive day for me. Worst feeling ever. Should I read more motivation's book then? What do you think? Is it because I have too many things to do? Or what?

Pic courtesy by my colleague, D. Focus buat kerja tu, Serius. 

P/s- So this is how it feel when we're working already. Baru mak tau. 

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