Greetings everyone,
Can't believe that it's Wednesday already. Well, the semester break had officially started on this week. No students, no classes, everything is no, #ijoke. Again I'm updating my blog live from the office. Just finished marking one of student's assignment and upon finishing it I realized I need a sneak peak here in my blog just to burst out things that bother my head.
So, here's the thing. I am currently working in one of the private college here in Brunei. Meaning to say that I'm in private sector. Long story short, I believe that everyone is aware with the current situation of global economy crisis and yes, this country also affected by this matter. Sales is not good, number of students allocated for each private college drop and in term of business I believe the profit also drop.
During annual dinner last year, I remembered the owner of this college mentioned that there 'might be' a cut down of headcounts. That 'might be' became reality. Two of my colleagues will going back to their hometown next week. And about few more will going back this September. I thanked God that I'm not in the list and great news is I've been offered to renew my contract. The management called me earlier last month regarding this matter but I kept things low to avoid rumors spreading within the company. I am grateful.
Deep thought about this, I realized that this is the consequences working in private sector. I felt 'kesian' with my colleagues who'll end their journey in this college. I am sad. I'm like talking to myself, 'Ok, we have to faced this kind of things when working in private sector'. And I started to envy those who are working with the government where they doesn't have to undergo this kind of things. I know I should not compare it. I know I should be grateful. It just, I am sad of this situation.
I believe in the power of prayer. Ever since I got this job, I continued to pray about it and as a result of that, I am still here.
I tried to discuss this matter with someone that I believe will understand and comfort me via Whatsapp last night. I tried to explain everything, tried to share every story regarding this re-structuring matter. But end up having a fight. I haven't finished my story and questions keep coming up, I texted the direct points but being accused of using flowery words and I should call rather than texting. What am I supposed to do when I'm not good in expressing things verbally. I get mad and I am sad again. Hoping to get comforted but it just getting worst.
Why don't I share it with my parents? Yay or Nay? Nay. A biggg NAY NAY. I don't want them to get worried of me. As simple as that. Decided to have my own 'me-time' today. I'm gonna devote myself to works and assignments today. No social networks. Now, it's like I'm punishing myself. Meaning to say, heart-broken sangat2 lah tu. I am sad :'(
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| Screenshot-ed this from CF673J IG acc. When I just finished my foundation in Crossfit in the middle of last year. #throwback |
