Helooooo bloggers! I'm back. Weehewww!! Welcome back juj (kasi welcome diri sendiri dulu :p)
My last post was back on January, wewww time flies isn't it? I wonder how's everyone in this blog. Hoping all is well. For the past 8 months (Is it 8months? Not sure.), I remembered reading the blog updates of few blogger that I can memorize their blog URL. Yeaa, at least I'm still in contact with blogger tho I didn't post anything kan.
So, another phase of life. Finally after 7 months tanam anggur di rumah a.k.a jobless (Not really jobless, still helping dad with his work tho), I got my first job. Horrayyyy!! (Clap, clap, clap). Another blessing from Him. Grateful, grateful and grateful. 252km away from the land below the wind (according to Google map, hehe), here I am entering the brand new phases of my life. I've never reveal in social media/network/whatsoever what my job are but I think I'm revealing it here, right now. Amboiii. Haha. So, I am teaching in one of the private college here, a.k.a lecturer (actually, I'm still malu with this title).
The thing is, I have to absorb so many stuff in a very short time. Tension and pressure was build within me and I need to do something to express it all. I don't think I can express by talking it to others. I prefer writing and here I am. (Winky, wink!)
Next week, the first class of this new semester will begin. 3 weeks before, I've been assigned to teach 2 subject only. Suddenly this week they updated the timetable and add one more subject. So, in total 3 subject for me. I'm excited to teach, I'm grateful, I'm eager to teach but when it comes to preparation I'm speechless. Yes, I am working hard for it, still working hard until this point but sometimes I became clueless of what I am doing. Do you get what I mean? Have you experienced this before? Okay, I already listed down my to-do list. But in the middle of accomplishing it, I got blur. I have to do my course structure, lesson plan, slides, assignment's question and marking scheme, student's project guideline all by myself. Andddddd we have to follow few process before all of that things being approved. If not approved, we have to do it over and over again. My mind is all over the places. This week we're handling the student orientation and few of the lecturers involves in short training with Ms. Mariam including me. I'm running out of time. What should I do? I'm trying each day to motivate myself but sometimes I failed and it will become unproductive day for me. Worst feeling ever. Should I read more motivation's book then? What do you think? Is it because I have too many things to do? Or what?
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| Pic courtesy by my colleague, D. Focus buat kerja tu, Serius. |
P/s- So this is how it feel when we're working already. Baru mak tau.
