relationship.

"A relationship without a trust is like a car without a gas, you can stay in it as long as you want but it won't go anywhere. "

Found this random quotes from Google and I realize it was soo true. Almost 1 year since that things happen, giving you another chance, the 1 year agreement to build the trust between us back. I can see the effort that you did to make me trust you again and I really really appreciate it. Trying my very best to trust you back and I realize I can't.  The pain is not there anymore but the wound is still there. We can easily forgive but to forget it is impossible. It's not like I am still living in my pass, I have move on but i still can't trust you back. All I want now is a time for myself. I do love you, will always love, but love only is not enough for us to carry on this relationship. I do hope you'll respect my decision. Pray, pray and pray. Who knows what God's has planned for us in the future. :'(

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holiday? oh yeahh!!

Hello guys! Whoaa.. Its been around 2 weeks since my last post right? Hmm..it's over, finally! The midterm, assignments, tutorials, quizzes and so on. Tommorow, I'm coming home. Oh yeahh!! Can't wait to run away from this hectic campus life. 1 week of holidays, will use it wisely, for sure. 

Somehow, life being so tough lately. In this period of time, emptiness. But I still manage to live it. *wink* Thank you Lord! I really don't know how to express how grateful I am to go through all of this. People comes and goes but God, for sure won't leave us. Sometimes, I wish someone will tell me earlier about it. But you, you know about it earlier right? Why you didn't tell me a single word at all? We are friends right? But there is no point at all talking all of this right now, the things had happen. Life must go on. Bless you dear friend. :)

i don't own this pic. copied from FB. 

Pretends that everything is okey, living life as nothing happen, but the truth is

copied from FB.

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the truth.

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Facing the truth is the hardest part of it. I keep saying I'm okey, I'm okey. But the truth is I'm not okey!! I'm living like I'm in hell for this past few months. I smile, I laugh everyday but honestly, I'm dying inside. Yes, I already forgive'em but why its become much harder now. Feels like I've no one to depends on anymore. I'm tired.

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ulcer.

Guess what? I am suffering a mouth ulcer for these couple of days.

It's painful!! Feels like dying. It so hard to talk, eat, and also to drink a water.

Why suddenly I got this ulcer? I have no idea at all.

And I also didn't have much time to go to clinic.

Can you imagine I went to the exam's hall yesterday along with this pain??

Sometimes I lost my focus on answering the questions because of this bloody ulcer.

Dear Mr.ulcer, I'm begging you, please go away from me :'(

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