Not a great day to start off my week. I rested well during the weekend, get enough sleep but still not good enough to enthusiast me. Tired. Demotivated. I need some more rest I think, the last time I took holiday that enabled me to chill at my hometown was back in February. 3 months ago.
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Not enough with that. Personal relationship problems. I really can't tolerate with doubts, being accused for such a nonsense reason and false statement. Those actions remind me the old him which make me wonder, did he really changed for good or not?
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Less than 2 days, we will say hello to June. Which indicates that, I have roughly one month left to get my assignments done. #studentsduty Both assignments were quite challenging because it's more on critical thinking and I have not started yet. But on top of that, June is the month of marking my student's assessment, submission of students progress report together with their e-portfolio and assessment development. T.T
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Budgetary. I created my personal cash flow forecast worth-ed 3 months ahead. It's my monthly routine actually but this time round I have to planned for more than a month. Why? Starting next month I have to fly back to KK, monthly basis due to various solid reasons. Anddddd the airplane tickets were freaking mahal! My goodness. BSB-BKI, operated by Royal Brunei Airlines only, so no choice. I need to pay all the bills, car loan and school fees. It's not that I can't afford it but I need to save money but how lah if like this *sigh*
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Today is the wedding day of my cousin a.k.a childhood friend. I'm so frustrated that I can't go home to join the celebration of their love. I missed their engagement ceremony and now I missed their wedding. Bounded to the commitment of work and plus 2 different country will never have exactly the same public holiday. It's a normal working day here~
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Just recently my physical condition getting weird. I woke up with a really bloated face, including my lips which rarely happened to me. My back acne suddenly attacking me again. I got 2 lines of eye-bag which I didn't even realized if my box's member did not mentioned it. Is it because of the stress of work? Stress of life? Too much thinking? Or is it because of the foods that I ate? I have no idea.
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It's not that when I wrote down everything here, when I voice out my endless complaints here it will solve the problem. No, not at all. But I just want to be real. I'm just a typical human being that faced this kind of situation also.
....and it shall always not bad, we only have to work hard. Be strong girl!
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Today is the wedding day of my cousin a.k.a childhood friend. I'm so frustrated that I can't go home to join the celebration of their love. I missed their engagement ceremony and now I missed their wedding. Bounded to the commitment of work and plus 2 different country will never have exactly the same public holiday. It's a normal working day here~
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Just recently my physical condition getting weird. I woke up with a really bloated face, including my lips which rarely happened to me. My back acne suddenly attacking me again. I got 2 lines of eye-bag which I didn't even realized if my box's member did not mentioned it. Is it because of the stress of work? Stress of life? Too much thinking? Or is it because of the foods that I ate? I have no idea.
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It's not that when I wrote down everything here, when I voice out my endless complaints here it will solve the problem. No, not at all. But I just want to be real. I'm just a typical human being that faced this kind of situation also.
....and it shall always not bad, we only have to work hard. Be strong girl!
