someone make me smile please?

Case 1:

Guys, have you ever feels like this before? 

When you say that you are really really sorry to someone,

you are asking for their forgiveness with whole-hearted but they don't believe you anymore? 

They said that you are not sincere enough.

It's painful right?

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Case 2:

Okey, you've give me the second chance. 

From the day I got this second chance, I was trying all my best to not ruining it.

You said that words cannot prove it, only action can.

So I build my own strength to prove it to you through my action.

But I guess that you didn't see my effort at all.

I just an ordinary people like anyone else but why your expectation to me is so so high.

When I said that I don't have the guts anymore, you said that I can. You have faith in me.

But why you keep judging me for the past mistakes that I've done?

How I am gonna move on if you keep doing that? 

Dear God, keep strengthen me in whatever this are.