28122012

Few days until new year. 

I am supposed to be back at Labuan today but due to few family reasons, I have to stay and will only be back at Labuan on 1st January. I don't know whether I should be happy or not. Exams is few days left too and I haven't even start my revision yet. I am soooo dead meat!!! 

Okeh, enough with that. Goshh, life is upside down for me right know, seems like I have lost in my own world. It's like I am not me anymore. I don't know, is it an exam fever or what. How come I totally forgot about my own dreams and goal. I know I'll get distracted by the 'distract er' but still I let myself in, allowing myself to be distracted. This sound crazy, I know. But this is the reality of me right now. I started to hide things from the one I loves,my family and you (you know who you are), trying to settle down all things by myself even I know that I can't, abandoning my responsibilities when I know I should not. Soo not juji!! Hate this side of mine.  Love life, be grateful  Love life, be grateful. Love life, be grateful. I'm talking this to myself again and again and again.

 Please come back to your sense juji! 

grabbed this from FB.

Dear God, thank you for never giving up on me. Awaken me from all of this. Let Your will be done in my life and I surrender all to You Lord. Amen.

“Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.” (Ephesians 5:14 NIV)

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Merry Christmas.

Back to hometown on last Friday. Weeeeeeeeee....!! Feels so good to be home. hehe. Spending quality time with my dear family, celebrating Christmas at church, eating non-stop. haha. That's the point. I'm forever grateful and truly blessed. Have a blessed Christmas everyone and Happy New Year 2013 in advance. 

Remember, life is a blessing! 

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relationship.

"A relationship without a trust is like a car without a gas, you can stay in it as long as you want but it won't go anywhere. "

Found this random quotes from Google and I realize it was soo true. Almost 1 year since that things happen, giving you another chance, the 1 year agreement to build the trust between us back. I can see the effort that you did to make me trust you again and I really really appreciate it. Trying my very best to trust you back and I realize I can't.  The pain is not there anymore but the wound is still there. We can easily forgive but to forget it is impossible. It's not like I am still living in my pass, I have move on but i still can't trust you back. All I want now is a time for myself. I do love you, will always love, but love only is not enough for us to carry on this relationship. I do hope you'll respect my decision. Pray, pray and pray. Who knows what God's has planned for us in the future. :'(

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hellooo weekend!

Hello bloggers, how are you guys? I didn't even realize it's weekend already. Yeay! Counting days to go back home for Christmas. But before that I have to focus on things that I've to do on next two week.It's a presentation weeks,huhhh; Fyp 1, web programming, SAAD and MIS. Wish me luck!

Hmm, thanks God the "case" have been solved in a good way. I am officially, legally own the room I've been staying until now. The power of prayer, do believe in that. He'll give every things that we need :)

I'll give you guys a point to ponder tonight. Christmas, what is the meaning of Christmas for you? My bestie' asked me to listen to this song. The lyrics do touched my heart, miss Your presence oh Lord. 

Be blessed :)

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unexpected December.

It's December! Whoaa the time is flying so fast i guess. Christmas mode activated. Well, through all the excitements and hopes for this coming December, I really really didn't expect that something will came out and ruined the whole mood of mine. Almost 3 years here in Umskal, I didn't even think that I'll got problems with the hostel administration.

 I just can't cope with a close-minded person. Seriously! This post might be a sensitive issues but just let me express myself here. Well, there is 4 persons staying in our dorm. Our dorm look like an apartment since we have 3 rooms, a toilet, kitchen, living room and so on. Me, my roommates, one Chinese girl from KL, and also a Malay girl from somewhere in Peninsular. This Malay girl, report us to the student council that we brings pork in the dorm. She said she saw the tin inside the dustbin. The students council visited us and report it directly to the hostel administration. And I'm like $#$@%^&%%#@$#&^&!!! 

We did bring it long time before, but on that day we're busted, it was the Chinese girl actually, she did admit to us but did not admit to the student council. We can't put all the blame on her since she is a junior. Another thing is, because of this case, the hostel administration found out that I switched room with my friend. So, double trouble for me. For this one, I didn't want to put the blame on anyone since it was my own fault for switching illegally. Humbly, I accept that one. But for the pork case, I really can't tolerate with! 

Hellooooo, other students bring it too FYI. We eat it secretly in our own room, we use our own eating tools, we don't even share spoon, plate or anythings. But if you are not comfortable with that, you can always discuss with us first,  negotiate with us first. Not directly report us to them. We can always settle this by our own first. Girl, you are in a 3rd year, same like me. Don't you even know how serious it could be if you report it to the administration? You have no idea what the three of us facing on right now. Being scolded by the "madam" yesterday, and I don't know what's next. 

The girl that report us, don't even dare to look at us now, staying in her own room for all days and night. I know you are afraid of us now. Dare to report us but didn't dare to speak directly to us. Seriously, what kind of person are you girl? 

I always respect others people religion, belief and culture. In the same time i really do hope that they'll respect mine too. Peace no war! 

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